One

Listening to One Blood by Terence Jay

In the far away fires
Where the hills forever burn
At the feet of our heroes
We try hard to learn
But the lesson is lost there
In the smoke and the mud
That we are one flesh, one breath, one life, one blood

I stood by the river
That ran red with shame
I stood in the killing fields
Where death had no name
I stood with my brothers
And away it flood
And we where one flesh, one breath, one life, one blood

Then I fell to the ground
Tasted ashes on my tongue
Thinking that only the dead
Are forever young

There was peace in the twilight
And for a moment among
It was a world without danger
A world without war
And I will take all your suffering
It will do any good
Cause we are one flesh, one breath, one life, one blood

- Terence Jay (Football Hooligans.. that move made me cry)

Domino

Listening to You Could Have It So Much Better by Franz Ferdinand

Orite, i think I wrote my last entry when i was kinda drunk, and I feel kinda stupid now. But I'll stand by what I said, I love Andrew. I would marry him if I could. Hehe .. I'm officially halfway through my bike lessons! hehe .. now if mediacorp would just fucking pay me then i'd be on my way.

I just watched Domino, which is by far one of the best movies ever. The cinematography was just fucking amazing, and the plot was fantastic. Keira Knightly was so gorgeous that I was willing to turn lesbian throughout the course of the show. It's one of those movies that just blows you away and leaves you hanging off the edge of your couch. It's one of those movies with a whole lot of violence and course language except that this one actually had a good plot and a great lead actress. It's a fucking rollercoaster.

Now I just wanna tattoo myself up and have sex with a hot, rugged man in the middle of the desert. By the way, Keira Knightly reveals her tits in the movie. For those of you who are interested. heheehe .. she's got mosquito bites but she's still mafucking hot, just like me. HAHA

Anyhoo, I feel like I'm in some weird dimension, I haven't seen charbee and co in years.. Mavis has become a mat-rocker and jules has become a clubbing whore. Wtf. I'm so weirded out. HAHA .. I've been hanging out with Steph and Gerald and Lionel nearly everyday now (btw, Gerald is my future husband) .. I've got so little money that I'm struggling to pay for ice time and I've got enough left in my account for ONE more bike lesson. I want to buy a fucking helmet because the ones at the school are so mahfucking smelly.

U know ever since I started taking driving/riding lessons, I've been so paranoid about traffic after all the horror stories they tell us. And even though I still jay walk and shit, I'm much more careful. And today, right after my bike lesson, I had just crossed the road when this smelly school kid went running across the road and almost got hit by a bus. Not just one bus, but two busses. Both had to E-brake and the guy in the car behind the busses wound down his window and started shouting at the kid. He was wearing some white uniform and looked like he was 14. And the stupid cocky bastard just stood at the side of the road and laughed to his friend, who was still on the other side of the road.

His friend, who i think had atleast an ounce of brains had stayed there and was totally freaked by the scene he had just witnessed. So he waited for the traffic to move on and when the road was clear he ran across and started telling the first kid off.

Stupid: HAHAHAH DID U SEE THAT?
Smart: Yes, that was so stupid, are you crazy?
Stupid: It was so funny! was is like, damn close?
Smart: YES! The bus was so near to you! I thought it was really going to hit you!
Stupid: HAHAAH .. That's so funny!
Smart: No it's not, you could've gotten killed!
Stupid: Don't worry, It's not just one time la, this is like, the 6th time i've done this.
Smart: Wahlao, you're crazy la. (still looking very worried and traumatised)
Stupid: Relax la, it was so funny! (starting to look a bit annoyed)
Smart: One day you may not be so lucky.
Stupid: (Now looking fully put-out) Why are you freaking out, I'm still alive what.

Ohmygod. Singaporean kids really have no brains.

Andy

I love Andrew. If Andrew was straight i'd marry him.

Ice Time

Listening to Like It Or Not by INXS

Hockey pics!

Ian and 'M'

I look so hawt in my new gloves.

Momok!

Mun Mun, Me & Jarett

Yan, Aladdin and 'M'

Mambo

Listening to Alright by John Legend


As you can see, someone came by us at Zouk and said, "Oh my god, you three are so unbelievably beautiful!" so he took our photo and put us in mumtazz.com

Ah. Don't we look pretty. Anyways. I'm going to be particularly emo right now because

I AM MAFUCKING PISSED.

I am sorry but my little shithead of a father is being a total bitch. He has to do everything his own bloody way. It's days like this when I really feel like I'm being driven out of my own fucking house.

He doesn't give me money and i've never wanted his money. I've studied and worked hard to make my own money, and i might even say that i'm doing shockingly well for a 19-year-old, but is that good enough for him? NO. That motherfucker is just never satisfied by anything. He is always talking about fucking money. If i EVER ask him for money he's all like, don't u have your own fucking money? And if I ever tell him that i'm actually making good money he'll be like, then why are you being so ungrateful, you should be giving money back to me, after all I bought the roof you live under.

He's all about fucking money. I am fucking sick of the way he treats me like a dog. He expects me to carry his shit and then he expects me to treat him like a real father? Well, he can just go blow himself because he will never be a father to me. Never.

MANIA

Listening to Devil's Party by INXS

More photos for you!

Momok.

kuku ming

Went to Zouk clubbing yesterday with Steph and Andrew and his friends. It was so much fun. Haha .. Like i always don't like clubbing but usually once i get there i tend to enjoy myself. And last night was no exception. Andrew is so much fun, i love him so much! hahahaha .. so anyways. We majorly over-ordered. It was happy hour and we kinda went crazy. So, we ended up with 4 jugs and 26 shots for just 3 of us. Oh dood. It was fucking hilarious. We had about 8-9 shots each and a jug apiece, and then we had to get people to finish off the last jug. It was so hilarious. We spent most of the time learning each other's dance moves.

AND THEY ARE NO ORDINARY DANCE MOVES. You should see us in action.

Steph and her Dior

Andrew with Steph's Dior

Yeh, we finished all 26 shots.

Andrew posing with our shots and jugs.

And since we are such pretty people, the paparazzi came to shoot us and put us in mumtazz.com

Err.. steph and i got bored.

Listening to Devil's Party by INXS

More photos for you!

Damn The Man

Freddy the Chicken

...

XB is Colourful Mole Man

WAHHAHA MAVIS ACTING DRUNK

Hehehehe .. Me and Harry Potter.

Lians in MOS

Jon's assets.

Harry Potter stealing Cleo's O

Listening to Life is Wonderful by Jason Mraz

Oh dood, i'm in love with Jason Mraz. I got so hooked on Geek in Pink that I bought his album. Which i've had on loop all day. Hehe.. Anyhoo.. life in the Newsroom has been pretty haywire.. there's been a fuckload of last minute projects. But it seems NIKE is interested in advertising with us, and buying our fashion spread. Which means sponsored clothes! woo. haha .. exciting. Anyhoo.. this week's so jam packed.. I've been going out every night. Went to JB last night, it was so funny cause Lionel was freaking out about getting robbed or raped in JB, which was ironic since we there were 7 of us, and 5 of which are guys. And we ate so much! Just went there and got cigarettes, beer and food.

Hehe .. anyhoo, going to zouk tonight and i've got idol on tmrw.. I think the winners are pretty clear-cut this time round as well. Hope it won't be as draggy as last week, cause the studio happens to be mafucking cold. And sometimes there aren't enough chairs so I have to sit on the bloody floor in front of the stage. Yerr.. ah well. But as much as i whine about it I still miss mediacorp. I was so happy to be back there last week. haha .. Got to have dinner with Juan and I got to see Andrew and Chris and the rest of the crew again! And i got to see Freddy too! And of course the idols, i have developed this weird protectiveness over a lot of them. hehe .. right.

Hope u guys like the pictures. haha

Fishbowl Insomnia

Listening to Dani California by Red Hot Chilli Peppers

Woar.. This week is progressing very, very slowly. Singapore Business Review finally went to print! I'm ecstatic. No more lunch that costs up to $10 everyday, no more climbing 3 flights of stairs everyday, no more having 30-year-old white men staring at u everyday. But then again, I will miss seeing jules everyday, even though her stupid whining about her broken heart irritated me. And I will miss Liy's weird antics, and Hajar talking about white men, and Kyle with his lovely sexy voice, and Pam and her 'wahrao!'.

HAHA. AYe.. so, i haven't blogged in awhile. Let me update u guys.

LAST WEEK I SCORED!

And this time it wasn't some rebound lucky shot, this time, it was planned and it was beautiful. hahahhaha .. i feel so fucking good. Ok, and i know u guys are gonna be like 'so what?' but the truth is that i'm a fucking tiny little junior player. There are 8 year old kids who play ice hockey better than me. And I still have a fucking long way to go. So, having said that, it is a big deal.

Yes. So. Moving on. On Sunday we went up to JB, i went with K2, and Daniel rode his bike in with Mun Jun, and Peter met us there. We went to see Howard and in the end we didn't even get to see him. So glam right. BUT, we did eat. And eat. And Eat. AND, I got to ride Daniel's bike! SO FUCKING FUN! See, last sat after hockey Mavis rode Arron's bike (in her sexay FBT shorts), and she said it was damn fun. And I have never been on a bike before. So, i decided to try, and JB is a great place for ur first time on a bike isn't it? HAHAHA .. yeah, it was damn exciting, a bit scary, but exciting. And Daniel drives really fast but he's steady so it was quite cool.

YARR. Anyhoo, David (Harry Potter) is leaving this coming monday, which is like, FWOAR DAMN FAST. So i think I should spend as much time as i can with him. And Steph is coming back on Friday! Yeah, now i finally have a girlfriend to hang out with. I realised that I only have 3 girls who are constant in my life now, Jules, Mavis and Pra. My two other favourite girls are overseas. So. It's quite scary. All my friends are boys. BOYS. And i am still single. How is that even possible?

I feel sad.

Lithium Creatives

Listening to If I Were You by Hoobastank

Got some new stuff that I spent a few hours on last night. I'm gonna re-brand Jaded inc / Subterfuge Ink. Gonna re-do the website as well.. I did 3 namecards, for my personal freelance work and stuff. Comments are welcome.

The bigger picture can be found [HERE]

This one's my main design. I'm probably gonna use this for my first set of namecards. The bird is my official logo.. It was inspired by Freddy, the chicken. haha .. I love Freddy, you see. Anyways, I finally managed to use illustrator properly. Learnt how to do proper vectors, instead of cheating and doing them freehand with my tablet. So.. everything is a lot cleaner, if you want to see the details, look below:

The bigger picture can be found [HERE]

This is the skeleton of the vectors.. basically just highlighted everything and grouped them together so that u can see all the points of the vector. Some good, hard work. But it was fun. Especially since it's been so long since I've gotten time out to do stuff for leisure.

The bigger picture can be found [HERE]

And this, is the other two sets of namecards that I did, Version 2 and Version 3, just some ideas that ran by my head after I did the logo. Very simple and clean. These will be my back-up namecards. When i have money I'll print a few sets. (:

We were meant to live

Listening to Geek in Pink by Jason Mraz



Watched the Da Vinci Code just now.. it was kinda disappointing man.. the book was so much better. Like two fucking thousand times better. I mean.. it's a tough story to put into a movie.. there's too much info. So in the end it gets really draggy with a lot of talking. And they didn't even reveal that her brother was still alive. Fucktofu.

Ooh.. the best part! My skates arrived today!! woo! so exciting.. went to skate just now, before the movie with david, peter, k2 and k2's friend.. was alright, i fell down loads of times.. getting used to the skates and learning new ways to brake. Haha .. but it's okay, i'm a happy girl. hehe .. David was fucking crazy, he was using the rental skates, which are like, really shitty figure skates. And he took those cones, not the small ones, the big ones that go up to waist level, and he fucking jumped them. On the ice. On shitty skates.

fuck. what does hanging out with david teach me?

.. Always carry a camera with you.

What if you should decide..

Listening to Square One by Coldplay

I just watched Elizabethtown. It was really good, made me all depressed because I wish I had what they had. It was the sweetest thing ever.. I want a boy - whine - I'm know I said I was too busy for a guy, but I'm starting to get bored of it. I wanna love someone who loves me back. I miss what I used to have. Sigh.. think I'm just gonna be emo and mope around for awhile, listening to Coldplay.

Elections

Listening to What To Do by Ok Go

I realised that the intro to 'You're The Reason I'm Leaving' by Franz Ferdinand sounds exactly like the intro to 'Do What You Want' by OkGo.

I am so observant.

Okay, I want to rant and rave. First of all, why the fuck is everyone talking about the bloody elections? We are fucking teenagers, in the throes of our last year of youth, and there we are, tired at 8pm, standing outside Ralph Lauren, so stoned that we started to salivate while one of our party talked for a full 5 minutes about politics (let me give u a hint, she has big tits). WHAT. THE. FUCK. Ok. Please, if you have some crap that you feel strongly about the PAP or whatnot, keep it to yourself. I still have 2 full years before I have the ability to vote, and for now, I would like to remain in blissful ignorance.

Now that that's out of the way, I shall rant about my second topic.

Fine Dining

See. I can not in all of my highly developed level of intelligence and my sharp intuitiveness, grasp why people would pay several hundreds of dollars on one meal. Let me first point out that with several hundred dollars, I can furnish my entire hockey gear set. Or, I could pre-order the latest Nike Bauer skates which weigh a freakish weight of 450 grams.

But yes, why the hell would anyone pay that much for ONE meal, I say. And THIS IS NO ORDINARY MEAL. You see, people make a reservation a month in advance, spend a lot of time 'dressing up' in what appears to be the most stiff and uncomfortable clothes in their wardrobes, put on 8 inches of make up and throw on they're most painful set of high heels that they can find, and go to a restaurant with an atmosphere to match their clothes. Basically, the whole place looks great, but it has got to be the most stressful and unomfortable environment ever.

You sit in a chair, keep your back straight, and try not to make any unnecessary sounds, otherwise the scary white man in the next table will glare at you. Next, u order a set meal, choose a 6 course, 8 course or 10 course, in which the prices doubles respectively. And then you wait, have some polite conversation, all the while keeping your voice down so that everyone in the restaurant is happy while everyone at your table is hunched over trying to hear you.

AND THEN, THE FOOD COMES.

My first thought was. What the fuck is that?

It comes on this huge-ass plate, with some great little sauce sprinkled tastefully around a piece of food that is not only unrecgonisable, but also barely visible. Why would anyone pay that much to have food that can be consumed in one bite? Why not get some mini oreos instead? And then you slowly progress through 6 courses of microscopic food while your entire attention is focused on not splattering any sauce on the table cloth which was probably bleached 7 times to make it so white that your eyes go out of focus when you stare at it.

And then the best part comes, you finish your meal, feeling slightly giddy from the immense stress and the amount of energy you put into picking up a tiny piece of food without making any noise, and the kind waiter sweeps over with your bill. And you pick it up and check the bottom line, and u realised that it's 3 digits, and if you doubled it, it would be 4 digits. You pay the waiter, tip him an amount that he doesn't deserve, and leave.

When you get to the carpark, you can breathe again. Why, I ask you, why, would anyone put themselves through that? I would much rather buy my hockey gear and spend the change on hawker food.

Ebay Addict

Listening to Crumbs From Your Table by U2

WE WON MALAYSIA! WINTERFLAMES VS. MALAYSIA 5-0, TOTALLY AND UBERLY SWEET.

hahahahaha .. so glam. Man.. I wish I was in KL watching the tournament. So fucking jealous, but Winterflames lost to UAE, who we're supposed to be better than. fuckey..

I am very sick of my website, first of all, i think I did a lousy job on the technical side, and secondly, it looks boring. I am fucking hooked on shopping for hockey gear, i've never splurged this much in such a short period of time. And the best part is that I haven't even been paid yet, so it's quite fantastic how smart I am.

But nevermind, because I got most of the things I wanted.. all that I'm missing is my stick, which David can't seem to find in Canada. Damn, ey. Oh, and I want hockey pants.. but that's not urgent. The fucker who I won the Dallas Stars Jersey from refuses to reply my e-mail requesting for the shipping charges, meaning that I most likely won't get the jersey. And there are NO OTHERS in my size on ebay. FUCK CHEEBYE. I'm officially pissed. Tomorrow I am waking up fucking early to bid on a Detroit Red Wings jersey, I don't care. I want it now.

PAH. I can't stop shopping. Well, actually, i've bought surprisingly little considering the amount of time I spend shopping online.. only bought three things on ebay and 2 of the 3 are from the same seller so the shipping costs less. Gahh.. I've cut down on one addiction and moved on to another.

Franz

Listening to Don't Look Back in Anger by Oasis

[Full Size Image Here]

Okay, figured I haven't done anything new in a long time. And plus I was bored out of my mind yesterday. So.. I did another vector. It's not perfect, i've gotten lazy and sloppy. But whatever.

ANyhow, hockey yesterday was not bad. I SCORED!!! woohoo!!! I'M SO HAPPY!!! ahahahah .. it was supercool. I feel supercool. haha .. ok.. i should stop going on about it. Marc called last night, he called to sing me this song he wrote for fun. And we talked for like an hour, I forgot what a huge fan I am. Haha .. he's got this amazing voice.

mm.. now that i've finished vectoring franz ferdinand, i'm bored again.

Song To Say Goodbye

Listening to Going Gone by The Vines

Singapore Idol's finally over, 7 hectic days. It's been total fun, well, not total fun, but i did enjoy myself. Feels like ages, like it was years ago the first time I spent half my life travelling to pasir ris and back. But yeah, I've bonded more with my crew and also with the contestants. Gotten to know some of them better, and I met many of the ex-contestants, which was great. Didn't realise how happy i'd be to see them until I actually did. (:

Anyhoo, I'm thoroughly tired. Don't even think I have the heart to skate tmrw. Don't really feel like going back to Charlton that much, but I have responsibilities eh? Work's been piling up there and piling up in school. It's been what, 3 weeks since I've been in the newsroom for a full day? I miss that place dearly, and all the people that come with it. I can't wait to put everything on hold and go back.

I miss having a slack 9-5. Work's weighing me down, even Howard says tt i complain about work too much. HAHA .. I need to start getting paid. haha

Hockey Night

Listening to I'm Your Villain by Franz Ferdinand

I am fucking close to 10, 000 pageviews on DeviantART, which would mark my success as an artist. I guess, i'm still fucking small compared to some. But atleast I have some fans and that counts for something. So will those of u with DA accounts be a doll and visit my page daily? haha .. I know I've been stagnant on DA lately, been busy with work, but I think I'm pretty happy with how far I've come. (:

Hockey night was fun today, and then i had the most retarded convo with mavis:

MAVIS:
> tell you something totally unbelievable

ME:
> what?

MAVIS:
> i bathed alr

Me:
> haha
> wtf, so did i

MAVIS:
> wow
> now we smell like FRESH flowers

Me:
> but i reached home earlier then u la..
> hahahaha

MAVIS
> how you know

Me:
> but a bit wilted la.. tired

MAVIS:
> hahhah
> flowers do sth during the night righ
> our leaves... chromotograhy or sth
> to produce oxygen

Me:
> yes
> but we need CO2
> i should smoke
> HAHA

MAVIS:
> ahhahah

Me:
> lol
> ey chi
> flowers produce oxygen during the day la
> carbon dioxide during the night

MAVIS:
> issit
> oh
> i'm a bimbo flower

Me:
> HAHAHAHAHHAH wah cheebye i almost fell off my chair

MAVIS:
> wtf
> you are a clutsy flower
> bimbo+flower= bimwer
> ahhaha
> or a flobo
> HAHAHHAHAHA

When the sun goes down.

Listening to Mardy Bum by Arctic Monkeys

HOCKEY PEOPLE

The following images were taken by howard (he thinks he's a pro photog)

Kaixiang, a.k.a K2

Peter, a.k.a P10

Me

Daniel

Rockbell International's Managing Director. haha

SOME OF MY CREW

Xinying

Samuel

Andrew (my smoking buddy)

Chris

Something funny happened the other day when I went to MOS. See, we were all at Pasir Ris, and after the evening started winding down we (the crew) decided to buy back some good old mcdonalds and head back to our hotel room to eat. So we all crammed into the room which had 2 beds and 2 pull-out beds and we all crowded on the bed and started devouring out food.

Andrew and I were going to MOS tt night, so after we finished eating he said he was gonna go home to change. And I asked him for a lift, he lives on Grange Road and he was taking a cab so I asked him to drop me off near his place then I'll catch a bus. So we were in the cab, and Andrew starts going on about how he feels a bit sick from all the food. And I'm starting to feel really stuffed too. And then I say, 'I think I need to take a dump'. And he's like, 'yeah, me too'. And we spend an agonising 20 minutes in the cab whining about how urgently we need to shit.

HAHA .. Then he drops me off, and I wait for a fucking bus. And I think I never wanted to shit that badly, and finally the bus comes. And as relieved as I am, all the while I'm thinking about how I want to kill Andrew cause he's probably already home sitting on that toilet bowl and crying in joy while I'm sitting on the bus next to some smelly people shaking my legs and trying to control my bowels. And I swear to god, when the bus gets to my stop I RUN. I think I could've won an olympic at that speed.

AND OH SWEET LORD IT WAS THE MOST SATISFYING SHIT IN THE WORLD. IT WAS EUPHORIA.

hahaha .. Then I went to MOS later and met Andrew there and we both talked for 15 full minutes about how we both had the best shits in our lives. Amazing how two people can bond over shit. haha

Idols Again

Listening to From The Ritz To The Rubble by Arctic Monkeys

I am, without a doubt, the last person who would like The Click Five. Ok, so I admit, I have ONE of their songs in my playlist. But I still think they are sad little posers who think they're a rockband but are actually mainstream pop. But the truth is, The Click Five's frontman, Eric Dill, is FOT. He came over to TALK to me today, and I think I came. First of all, he was trying to read the words on my 'Hi, I'm Slug' shirt, and hence was staring somewhere in the vague area of my non-existent tits (and I think his stare melted them). And secondly, he came to TALK TO ME. OH DOOD. I almost raped him there and then. And to top it off, i got a photo with my hot little boys, both of which who were on either side of me put their arms around me. I WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH THEM. hahahha .. goddamned sexy boys.

And on to the less interesting things in my colourful and fascinating life, went to MOS earlier, with the Trimedia people. I was actually there for my wristband more than anything else, but it was pretty cool seeing them. I feel like it's been years since i've been to the newsroom. I'm sick and tired of working..

Ashley

Listening to All The Way by Craig David


Yesterday I got home around 12 and I was really totally beat, been out for supper with Howard and Peter nearly everyday and we had a particularly filling meal last night. 4 of us, they ordered 5 dishes excluding a giant bowl of soup with fish and pork and a giant plate of hor fun and 4 plates of rice. Oh dude.. I was beyond sleepy. And guess what, I came home to my cousin!! haha .. I have no cousins on my dad's side, and only one from my mum's side in singapore, so you should be able to understand my excitement. I love my cousins to bits.

ANd he brought his wife and his baby!!! My first ever niece, her name is Ashley and she's 7 months old and the cutestmostadorablelittleballofjoyintheworld. OMFG, I want to keep her. She IS SOOO FUCKING CUTE. Her eyes are huge! omgomgomg.. I never thought I could love a kid that instantaneously. Every ounce of energy was returned to my being when I held her. She's so bloody cute, and she loves playing with me. She's got the cutest smile and the sweetest little giggle. my god. I'm gonna die of joy.

When September Ends

Listening to Cash Machine by Hard-Fi

Sigh, been going on slow-mo since the week crawled in, i'm dying for it to start speeding up since mid-week is tomorrow. September seems so far away, i was thinking back.. when we went to New York, when wednesday used to mean dressing up for ladies night with my girls. It all seems like a faded sketch. Now i'm down to the monotomy of 9-5. Worse still, i might even be in until 8 some days.. according to Mary-Ann. XB's got the easier job, but in terms of pay, he's getting more. haha .. But he deserves it anyway. Been a great help, Wenliang was quite impressed by his work on Mishire's website. (:

Anyhoo, i've just been officially called back for more work on Singapore Idol 2. This time it's 4 days, but i might not have to go down everyday anymore. And all the hot guys have gone. :( So boring man.. haha .. and my pay won't come in till maybe a month or so. I'm itching to start buying hockey gear.

I stepped on broken glass just now. WTF right, in my room. Dunno where the hell it came from, but it was a tiny piece.. and i think there's still a really small one stuck in my foot cause it's been irritating the fuck outta me and i can't seem to see anything under my foot. CHi. Howard came by for a smoke just now, I've been seeing Howard everyday la, but he's been a great help. Looks out for me and I've been learning a lot from him and meeting a lot of useful contacts through him as well. So i'm not compaining. (:

I can't wait for my dad to move out. I have a feeling he isn't going to, which pisses the fuck out of me. Bastard.