Goodbyes

Listening to Shine On by Jet



This post is for Jules.

I don't really know where to start. We all knew that this was coming. And what feels like a long time ago you came to me and asked for advice about going to Uni. And to me it had been a friend asking for advice and that was that. It seemed like something that wouldn't really happen. And we got through school and came out laughing, had our holiday together and I guess I might've pushed it to the back of my head, your inevitable departure. Maybe I didn't really want to believe it was true, or maybe I didn't want to start getting all emotional everytime i met you.

And at the airport last night, when you asked me if I was stoned. And i laughed and said no. I was really fighting hard not to cry because I knew you would too and you'd probably call me an asshole for making you cry and it would just make us look like two retards crying. But you said I was strong enough and I wanted to be for you. I know I caught your eye a couple of times at the airport and some kind of sadness would pass between us.

And the closer we came to your time of departure, the more memories filled my mind of the times we had together. Honestly speaking if I was to try and list them all out I wouldn't have been able to. The most prominent was probably at Beat last week, when we went to the toilet together and we talked about you leaving and making new friends. I know you'll be okay but I have never once doubted how fucking lucky I am to have met people like you and the rest of charbs and co.

At the time when I last hugged you, i felt there were so many things I wanted to say to you but i felt them choked back when you looked at me and you mumbled something like 'ohcheebye' haha.. and we couldn't seem to look each other in the eye. I'm sorry to get all emotional on you here, but Shine On has been on loop on my playlist and I've been getting all teary over my computer. I thought I'd be so used to people leaving, but I really miss you like fuck.

Juli, please take care of yourself there. I hope you know how much you mean to all of us, and we love you (:

yeah i'll fight

He wants to give but he’ll give himself away
She wants to take but she’s taking all she can
They’ve got it all figured out
He wants to listen but there so much more to say
She wants to shout it out loud but she doesn’t
She doesn’t open her mouth

Had enough of crying
When she’s happy and smiling when she sad
Had enough of wondering
What became of all the dreams he had
Are they out there somewhere

Can you remember the way it used to feel
We'd run as fast and as far as we wanted to go
But then the walls closed in
And I was one step forward and two steps back
Two steps forward and three steps back

Oh it’s all too much
So take my hand we’ll jump together

Baby I won’t leave you on the inside
Together we can make it on the outside
You and me on the outside

Shine your light on me and I’ll shine my light on you.

Pass it on

Listening to More Than Anyone by Gavin Degraw

"You're too emotional. When you're down, you see nothing but darkness; when you're up, you're thoroughly overexcited."
"But to be honest, I like being that way." - Shanghai Baby

Beat photos up on Facebook.

Sway

Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much to smart for this
You know it gets the better
Of me sometimes
When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down