Amazing Me

Listening to She's Got The Look by Roxette



HAHHAHAH .. okay, i just wanted to show off my photoshop skills. But really, this is the only picture of all of us that night at Mambo. Well, excluding Jon and XB who are too boring to club. hahah .. joking guys. But yeah, i editted this picture and now we are all much much prettier than we were (which was already like FUCKING pretty), and i'm sorry Weiming but no matter how hard i tried u still look like a monkey.

Anyways.. i'm going to Europe next week. Which is kinda scary cause it's like, kinda out of the blue. I didn't realise time was going by that fast. Especially now when time seems to stand still. haha .. but I'll be gone for an entire month. I'll be spending my first two weeks in London staying with my sister, who'll be in Uni a lot of the time so i'm planning to explore London on my own, so expect a lot of hot pictures from me. I'll try to keep blogging but the second two weeks when i'm backpacking around Europe i may not be able to get to a computer.

I'M GOING TO MISS YOOOOOO GUYS!! Lets go out before i leave okay? Ya my flight is at 6.45AM so i don't think u guys will come send me off, but we can always go out on wednesday night.. i don't plan to sleep that night anyway.

And THIS FRIDAY: CHARBEE & CO OUTING TO SENTOSA.
MAVIS IS GOING TO WEAR HER 'SURFBABE' SHORTS AND WE ARE ALL GONNA SEDUCE MEN WITH OUT BAYWATCH-STYLE RUNNING EXCEPT ME AND ANNE, BECAUSE OUR TITS ARE TOO SMALL TO BOUNCE. BUT OTHERWISE U GUYS ARE EXPECTED THERE. MEETING AT 10AM AT HARBOURFRONT.

Retro Junkie

Listening to I Hate Myself For Loving You by Joan Jett


.. dedicated to all Mambo fans.

Just uploaded this series.. One of the ideas I had while I was rotting away in Malaysia. I guess that's the one good thing that can come out of boredom: great ideas. I was planning to do some other shots but it's been raining a lot and also after i got my haircut i look like a complete retard so I think i'm gonna have to wait till it grows out a little.

Anyways, self-portraits (from a purely arty point of view and not from a irritating 14-year-old-girl-cam-whoring point of view) are getting massively popular these days. I have no idea why, but i wanna start trying. I mean, not only is it massively difficult to frame yourself in the shot, it's also really tough bringing out your own character as a photographer.

I mean, it's easy to spot someone else's as your model but when it comes to yourself it ain't that easy. And in a way, if u've ever tried (and i mean really tried) u'd start to realise how naked u feel or even how ugly u feel when u shoot yourself (i'm waiting for mavis to say 'no, whenever i take a photo of myself i feel damn pretty'). And it's hard for me to take a photo of myself without being overly critical about it. But i guess that's part of the learning curve huh?

Anyways, i've been watching all these films i've been wanting to watch but haven't been able to find. Over the weekend I've seen Pulp Fiction, Donnie Darko, Trainspotting (which were all fucking good) and Alpha Dog (which is fucking disappointing). And I've been trying to watch Requim For A Dream too but the loading has been screwy. And i also wanna watch The History Boys and American History X but i can't fuckin find them. So if anyone has a link please send it to me! And Donnie Darko rocked.. I felt so disturbed and kinda emo after the show.. but it was brilliant.

"A storm is coming,"
Frank says,
"A storm that will swallow the children."
And I will deliver them from the kingdom of pain.
I will deliver the children back to
their doorsteps.
(I'll) send the monsters back to the underground.
I'll send them back to a place where
no one else can see them.
Except for me.
Because I am Donnie Darko.

Let the record play

Listening to Keep Your Hands Off My Girl by Good Charlotte



OMG I GOT THE BEST PRESENT FOR MY BIRTHDAY EVER!

haha ..arrived in the mail today from my brother, all the way from London, Death Cab's 'Drive well, Sleep Carefully' dvd and Postal Service's Give Up. phwaor man.. my brother is just the coolest. And flowers! hahaha .. okay, i'm not a flower person, but Yuey was supposed to come by and give me flowers but his flight got shifted so he ended up going back to aussie early. Steph bullied him into it. haha .. but i don't care. I had such a good time last night! Everyone who didn't go to Mambo really missed out man. haha.. but it was soooo fuckin packed. Phuture was just like a puddle of sweat. It was kinda sick but whatever. I just spent all my time at Zouk and the music was so good too. And also, it's hilarious to think that we arrived at Zouk in our clubbing gear on Jon's sexaye lorry. ahhaha .. but it was damn fun.

Man.. I just watched Alpha Dog, the new movie with the gorgeous Justin Timberlake. Ok, granted it was a pirated DVD with really bad quality, but I still enjoyed it. The ending was kinda disappointing though. It's basically about these druggies, and the dealer who's called TrueLove (wtf right) and this one dude owes him money. So one day when the dude's younger brother runs away from home, TrueLove grabs the opportunity and 'kidnaps' the kid and makes JT look after him. And they end up making friends and shit.. he takes the kid out, gets him drunk, laid and stoned. And then at the end the cops get wind of the whole kidnapping thing and TrueLove freaks out and pays one of the guys to kill the kid. WTF RIGHT. disappointing. I thought JT was gonna swoop in at the end and save the kid or some shit but he just like stood there and watched them shoot the kid. I was so pissed at the end.

TAG

Listening to Love Generation by Bob Sinclair



PHWOAR. I'm already getting pretty depressed since mei's leaving tomorrow and won't be here for my birthday. I've been listening to all these retro songs on itunes and all i can think of is how much fun we always have at Mambo and she's not gonna be here for it. Bla.. We got soooo drunk last night with her friends from London. Man can they drink. ahha .. But ya. the point of this entry is to invite the whole world okay? Please come.

Charbee & Co. please meet at 6pm at Clarke Quay MRT for dinner and stuff first. okay?

Hearts

OMG I'VE DISCOVERED THE SECRET TO HEARTS! Ya okay, i'll admit that Malaysia is getting fucking old on me. I've been spending a lot of my free time (and that's A LOT) playing the PC version of hearts and wondering why the hell the queen of spades always miraculously ends up with me. BUT I'VE MASTERED IT! I ACTUALLY WON! LIKE TWO WHOLE GAMES IN A ROW! hahaha .. i realise how sad i sound.

But really. I'm so fantastically glad that i'm going back to Singapore in 13 hours, which sounds like a long time away as it is but i'll sleep through most of that. I'll be home! Where I can smoke freely and go out anytime i like and last night i was so bored that i started thinking about what i would be doing if i was in SG and i started getting all these really cool ideas for photographs and i just can't wait to hold my camera again. And Jules thanks for inviting us over for dinner. It sounds GREAT. Better than any of my recent chinese new year activities. hahaha ..

Even going out with Dani last night wasn't that much fun. He finally got together with his girl best friend and suddenly he's all in love and talking about getting married. How freaky.. and he spent the whole night pining for her because she just went back to Ukraine the day before to complete her degree in medicine. And yeah fine, he's 27 and i guess marriage is okay at that age but still. The last time i was here he was single and we would go get wasted all the time and now he's all sit-down-have-a-coffee and no-thank-you-i-gave-up-drinking which is just all too strange for me. At least he hasn't quite smoking.. thank god.

But whatever it is, Malaysia with it's a-pothole-every-5-metres and it's suicide bikers and 2 ringit ang pows is just not the place for me. I can't wait for Mambo on wednesday and i can't wait to go to Europe. I was just planning the trip with my siblings and it sounds so eggciting. I can't wait!

Malaysia Truly Asia

Spawn was released last week. I just forgot to upload it here. Anyways, i've just gone through our e-mails from our client (Coke) and guess what they said,
"Our region country manager pointed out that the works of these students have even surpassed that of those from the above-the-line agencies."

WAH! aren't we just like so hot? And by 'these students' they mean all the teams. So I think all of us should be really proud of ourselves. I can't believe how far we've all come after just 3 years in poly. It's been such an amazing experience and it's totally works!

Anyways, on to MALAYSIA TRULY ASIA.

I went shopping alone today. It comes with the package when you live with a family like mine. At 3pm everyday EVERYONE goes to sleep. It's like nap time. I usually take advantage of this time to run out to smoke. And at night, the house is dead by 9pm. But yeah, this time, i got my aunt to drop me off before naptime. haha

But back to the point, shopping was quite good. Although i spent quite a lot of time worrying about getting mugged/raped/murdered, i enjoyed myself quite a bit. I bought some pretty nice and cheap tops. And last night I went to the night market to buy some presents for Xin & Jo, since they are helping me take care of Coco over this weekend.

But ya. Even though now i don't really think twice about going out alone, i realised how crazy this country is. A few days ago, at this condo near my grandparents place, this husband and wife got into an arguement. And no, he didn't kill the wife. The wife got so angry that she ran out of the house. And instead of chasing her with a chopper (like malaysians usually do), the guy went back into the house and killed his two sons (aged 8 and 10) and then killed himself. Seriously. this country is full of psychos.

AND, the guys in Malaysia are fucking hilarious. They are so straightforward when they try and hit on girls that most of the time i'm just trying really hard not to laugh. These are some of the pick-up lines you tend to encounter when you're in Malaysia:

PUL 1: eh.
PUL 2: eh girl.
PUL 3: Oi! Lang Lui! (pretty girl)
PUL 4: eh. eh.. EH!!
PUL 5: Hello! Hello? ... eh!

Yeah.. they like to say 'eh' a lot. Whatever line they try, if it fails, they always resort to 'EH! EH GIRL!' hahahaha .. it's fucking hilarious. Most of the time i just try my best not to laugh (in fear of getting stabbed) and walk away. It's such a great experience living in Malaysia.

Something glam

Listening to Dynamite by Jamiroquai

I have a love-hate relationship with Malaysia. There's really no where else in the world where I would go out to a megalmall looking like trash. It's liberating in a way. Then there's my friend Dani, who always promises me a good time in KL. We go out to Mont Kiara or downtown, get drunk, go get my fix of pirated dvds and ciggs and then we have supper at 3am and then when we're sobered up he drops me off at home again. It's a familiar routine everytime i'm here.

But on the other hand, being near my dad 24 hours a day is like super high-stress. It's like taking a walk through a pride of lions or something. haha .. He's already freaked out twice today, once in the car and once after we arrived. Which wasn't fun. ANd i haven't smoked in 13 hours already. I'm about to spontaneously combust.

Ah well.. at least this time I'm only here for 3 days. So i won't complain.. much. hehe .. But on the bright side:

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you are all invited to MAMBO this WEDNESDAY (21st) to have a sexy time with me! It's my 20th birthday and everyone and anyone is invited. It's an open invitation. Just turn up okay! Except Charbee & Co, for u guys, attendance is compulsory. hahaha

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AND SOMETHING EVEN GLAMMER. GOH MING SHAN, ELINZ WONGZ, LIN XUAN BIN, CHUA KAILIN AND ADELINE CHONG MOON TENGZ ARE THE 5 GLAMMEST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD BECAUSE WE WON THE ADVERTISING PITCH FOR COCA COLA! OMG WE ARE JUST THE SEXIEST PEOPLE EVER. I JUST HAD LIKE A MULTIPLE ORGASM WHEN I GOT THE NEWS. THANK ALL OF YOU WHO PLAYED A PART IN OUR PROJECT, ESPECIALLY THOSE WHO SHOWED UP FOR OUR PHOTOSHOOT AND TOLERATED OUR STUPID REQUESTS! U GUYS ROCK! BUT NOT AS MUCH AS US! HAHAHAHHA

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FEL: Same here! Come again next week for my birthday!

Planet Earth

Listening to I'm Yours by Jason Mraz



OH MY GOD. Planet Earth has got to be the sexiest documentary in the world. Mei and I spent SIX HOURS today watching Planet Earth. I am amazed. They have first ever footage of some animals that have never been caught on camera before, like the gorgeous snow leopard in it's home environment with a cub. They have shots of Pikas, these animals that look like rabbits but with really round bodies. Their the animal that Pikachoo was named after. And SQUARE-faced foxes. What the fuck right. And they have the first shot of a ONE TONNE great white shark completely out of the water trying to catch a seal.

And HAIRY CAMELS! oh my god. There are really hairy camels that can only be found in Mongolia and they survive on ice. Like they eat ice. And to seduce females, the males slap their own asses with their tails. HAHA .. it's the most entertaining documentary ever. And they had this shot of some flying lemur. And Mei and I had this conversation:

Me (A): WAH!
Mei: It looks so weird!
A: Yeah but very cute!
M: Maybe it came from space. Like you never know. Maybe some of these animals are actually aliens that just fell into earth.
A: Yeah, i'm sure they just fell in and happened to look like mammals.
M: well.. you never know right?
A: Mei, they would burn before they even reach the clouds
M: Well you know, if they're from space they would've evolved right?
A: yeah okay, so lets go to the rainforest and burn all the animals. The ones that don't burn are from space.

Mei is the only person I can have conversations like this with.

And I take my hat off to their cameramen. Not only talented but extremely patient people. They are so fucking dedicated. They built a 'hideout', like a camoflaged shelter with camera equipment in and enough space for one person to sit in. And one guy stayed in there for 120 hours just waiting for a 30 second shot of some bird of paradise. Damn glam can. And they dragged their camera out in Antarctica in -60 degrees with winds travelling at 50 miles per hour just to film the emperor penguins. They like had 5 or 6 guys carry 500kg worth of camera equiment 1 mile underground into like some damn scary cave. 500kg! I don't think we even came close to that during locvid and we were already whining.

These people are fantastic. They even waded in waist-deep into a mountain of bat shit and cocroaches just to get some shot. The guy who shot the scenes of the snow leopards waited a few weeks for 5 minutes of footage. He spent christmas day in a tent, standing in front of a camera waiting for something to appear. And they can stay there like all day just staring at the screen. Kanina k.

One day I'm determined to be a wildlife photographer. Oh and please stop global warming.

MAVIS: i don't mind okay, atleast i get to make money from fucking hot italian/spanish men. haha

Every Boy

Listening to Boys In The Band by The Libertines



Wah. I've been so productive today. I spent most of the night Youtubing and downloading music. Welly hardworking k. It all started with JT's what goes around video. God that boy is sexy. And then it went on to more MTVs and then on to stupid home videos. I've just been entertaining myself tonight. The closest i've come to studying is photocopying all my notes and reorganising them and having a discussion with Mavis about Contract I: Intention to create legal relations and considerations and terms of contracts. Which is totally like all that we'll be tested on. haha

I did however, go to school today to Factiva with Joo Joo, Poo & Woo. haha.. and we went for dinner with Moo and ended up telling ghost stories. It was veh nice! veh nice! Anyways.. i'm having a crap time at home. It seems i might end up having to pay for my Europe trip myself. My mum paid for the air ticket and my dad refuses to chip in. What a dickhead. Nevermind, i'll just dig out money for myself, i don't need him. I'm going to fuck hot italian men with or without his money. hahahaha

Love Generation

Listening to Love Generation by Bob Sinclair



I FUCKING DID IT! I MANAGED TO GET AWAY FROM FUCKING MALAYSIA! OMG I AM SO GLAMOUROUS. MEIQI GETS A TRAY OF SHOTS ON WEDNESDAY. I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW AWESOME THIS IS. I'M GOING TO BE BACK IN SINGAPORE ON THE 19TH WITH THE HOUSE TO MYSELF AND LIFE IS PEACHY AGAIN.

And i have better news too! My tickets are finally BOOKED for my trip to London. And i'll be touring round South England and Spain and Italy and Prague. Just steph and I, and we're gonna be shagging all the hot spanish men. Oh god this is the sexiest thing that has happened to me in a long time. hahahha

Anyways, this is a little early, but I wanted to wish everyone a Happy Valentines day and to remind you all what a retarded holiday it is. Single or not single I HAVE NEVER celebrated vday. And the wallpaper I made above is for all you suckers out there! HAHA AND
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GWYN AND MINGSHANZZZzzZzZzz!!

Emo Again

Listening to Inflation by The Whitest Boy Alive



Does anyone else out there hate Chinese New Year too? You know, I bet everyone's happily shopping for CNY clothes and waiting to count their ang pows and I'm the one person in Asia deperate to stay at home alone in Singapore on CNY. You know how I've been preparing for CNY? I've been sitting at home all day writing a bloody 20-page report on Direct Marketing and feeling sorry for myself.

I want so badly to stay here this year.. I don't want to go. Please, if you're reading this help me think of something, because so far, the best idea i have is to break my leg the day before we leave. So whoever u are, if u have an idea that works, u will get a tray of shots from me, or a monetary reward of $100. I'm that desperate.

This time of year always makes me feel so depressed. I feel like everything's going wrong now. My mum came back and for the first time ever i'd rather she be away again. I've grown so used to not having parents around that I'd rather it stay that way. Does anyone else flinch when u here keys turning the lock to your house because u don't want to see your father's face? Does anyone feel the pressure lift when u hear the door close behind them on their way out? I don't know how things got so bad but i'm definitely not happy about it. I need to live on my own. I really need to get away.

And i'm not trying to brag or anything, but everytime i go clubbing with mei I meet some nice, cute guy. We talk, dance exchange numbers and whatever. But the point is that no matter how nice or cute, when he calls me the next day i just don't feel like following it up. I don't feel like going on a date and making small talk and getting to know each other or even falling in love or whatever shit there is to it. It's just too tired and boys are just too much trouble. Clubbing is a great way to get your fix of human contact without the emotional strings.

I feel so fucking jaded with life. Even being emo bores me.

Technicolor

Listening to Gold Digger by Kayne West



I've got something new. It'll be a short entry. I uploaded this on DeviantArt and got 4 instant favs.. (pls click on the image to go direct to DA) Which just goes to say what super sexy people we are. And I've been getting very emo thinking about graduation. Weiming and I were joking about how jules will sob all over her tits at graduation and we'll just laugh, but I'm actually feeling quite sad about it. I've absolutely loved these past 3 years with you guys. Especially my dearest Charbee & Co. I really think I've finally found a group of friends that I know will be there for me, and lets keep it that way ya. We need to have poker night sometime! haha .. I love u guys!

We Luv U!

Listening to Doorman by Stereophonics



VERY GLAM PICTURES!!!

Haha .. okay, so we finally finished the pitch and I had a great time letting go at Mambo last night. I met this guy and we talked and danced and then mei and i ran off and i realised tt i didn't even ask for his name. So when he contacted me later, i saved him as 'cute guy'. Quite sad right. ahhahaha

Anyhoo, school this week has been.. unforgettable. Haha .. i mean, everyone's finished classes but somehow we're still going back to school every other day. It's not that shitty cause we're not bogged down with advert anymore. We actually had lunch with some of the lecturers the other day after our pitch, to celebrate the end of advert and our coming graduation. I think that was when it really hit me. I mean last day of school was fuckin anti-climax, i didn't feel anything. But that day after lunch when I was walking back to my bike i actually felt really really sad that we're all leaving school.

But on to more entertaining things. Wa dude lunch was hilarious. It just made me realise how mass comm students and mass comm lecturers are actually so fuckin alike. haha

I'm Yours

Listening to I Will Follow You Into The Dark by Death Cab For Cutie



You've probably already read about this in Jules' or someone elses' blog, but pay attention, I HAVE PICTURES THEY DON'T HAVE! hahahaha .. duh, i had the camera. But really guys, sorry, i've been so caught up with advertising that i've hardly even had time to eat and sleep, let alone sift through pictures for u guys. BUT, that doesn't mean that I won't okay?

Anyhoo, we went to Haji lane last weekend to see see (after Keshia's super inspiring photoessay), we all wanted to go check it out. And I brought my new fishy fisheye lens! (: So funz ritez. Here's some of the pictures! I promise i'll upload somemore soon!

Ya. On to more intersting topics! What more is there to talk about but ADVERTISING?? OMG IT IS THE MOST EXCITING PROJECT I'VE EVER WORKED ON.

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haha .. bet u believed me for a moment. I srsly do not feel like I've finished school okay. I've overnighted waaaay more than i would've liked to and I'm getting soooooooo sick of Coke. My team's been living off instant noodles, redbull and for me, cigarettes. It is unbelievably unhealthy. I can't wait for Wednesday. By wednesday pitch would be over, adcre would be over, the advertising test would be over and I would've submitted my movie review for urbanwire and my direct marketing assignment AND looking forward to Mambo night so that I can kick back and just let hot guys come shag me all night. And all that would stand between me and graduation would be Masina & MedLaw exams.

Let us all say it together. 'Yesssssssssssssssssssssssss..'