speed

Ever wondered what it was like to live in a volatile family? Like walking on broken glass, or when u walk through an alley and there's this huge guy at the end of it and somehow you know that if you took one wrong step he would beat you over the head with a fist the size of a dinner plate Ever wondered what it was like to live in air where you can't breathe, where there's always this pulpable tension around you, and your heart pounds constantly. Like adrenaline, because your whole life is fight or flight. And your mind and body is scarred and you hate yourself for showing fear and anger boils down into your bones. Ever wondered what it was like to know that if you had a gun he would be dead now and you'd be in jail soon?

Like sitting in a car and speeding along the highway. I actually wished that we would crash. I wanted to see the barrier zoom up towards us and expand until it filled all my vision and life would darken in a second.

Christmas fucking sucked.

NO ONE HANDED UP MY FEAT 1 FOR ME. FUCK.